Hat Party and Rough Days!

I had some very sweet neighbors throw me a hat party. I got so many hats, scarfs, lotions, and other gifts to lift my spirits. I cannot believe the generosity I have recieved from the neighborhood, especially since I just moved here. I feel fortunate to have so many friends and family supporting me right now. My daughter went with me to the party. She had so much fun opening the gifts for me and trying everything on. She said it was the best party ever! lol I got of the same hat- I think I will keep both and give one to her. She will love to have a matching hat with mom!

The hat party was just what I needed! Yesterday was a rough day. I think dealing with cancer on top of the ex's has taken a toll. I have not had any energy even when I am not feeling nauseous. I knew the cancer and chemo would take a toll but I feel like I cannot catch up. There is so much I need to get done but just can't find the motivation or energy to do it. It is hard to rely so much on Billy and others. Despite trying to help out as much as possible and showing my appreciation, I feel like a burden. Our whole life has been turned upside down with my cancer. Not a week goes by that I don't have chemo, tests, or dr appts. I have tried to keep life as normal as possible for my kids but I know my health has affected them. I signed my son up for baseball and my daughter up for tumbling to give them time to forget mom is sick. It is important for me to be there to watch despite how sick I am and let them be the center of my attention for that short time. I wish I had more energy to take them to the park or ride bikes with them. I think you forget the simple things in life sometimes until life slows you down. I know this battle is short but right now it seems never ending. I am indeed grateful for what I do have and those in my life. However, I am anxious to move forward with my life and overcome this trial.

I also miss my kids since they are with their dad for his summer visitation. I know getting rest while they are gone will be good for my healthy and recovery but getting kisses and hugs throughout the day from them gives me strength and hope. The love of a child is the best medicine you can get while you are battling life's obstacles.